Don’t you recognize me?
I’m the girl that’s always smiling out in public……….the one who’s put together.
Every hair in place .
Make up impeccably applied so as not to attract attention.
I’m helpful and kind putting my best foot forward. Convincing enough so that no one will give me a second look. I’m in complete control and wishing myself into invisibility.
If I appear to be perfectly fine then maybe no one will guess.
I can fade into the wall.
Where no one can see who I really am.
I’m the girl who is suffocating under 25 feet of water….walking through waist- high mud.
I’m the one who feels saddness like a wet blanket flung over my shoulders.
My heart beats too fast to be healthy and I have an elephant sitting on my chest making it hard to breathe.
I smile working through it so no one will know how bad I feel.
I’m the girl who uses twice as much energy to work through a bad day…………waiting until I can get into my car turn the music up drowning out the sound of my own voice in my head.
I’m the one who’s tears burn behind my eyes on days when I can’t compose myself.
Do you know who I am?
I’m yet another face of depression……..